Communication

The Blog has become a new form of communication for me. I enjoyed the challenge of NaBloPoMo and made a good effort for my 1st venture. NaBloPoMo was going along nicely until it came to a crashing halt this week. I have found I really enjoy blogging as a from of communication - it works for me right now. Only Annie comments and she always says nice things so this has become a really positive form of communication for me. I express myself and I get positive feedback, I choose what I want to say, I can edit and delete, I can share my pride and today share my disappointments. NaBloPoMo is sort analogous to how I communicate...I make a very good effort but often it comes to a crashing end.

The blog is a reflection of myself and I often try to portray all the good stuff. I am a Libra - I like balance and hate conflict. I bottle up ugliness and try really hard to please everyone.

Unfortunately, I am pulled in many directions everyday. Every direction requires its own delicate communication abilities. I am not very good at many of the required forms of communication. I am not a very good writer (that's obvious), I am definitely not very good at expressing myself to people I love and care about. I am not that into artful forms of communication -art, music, poetry or literature. I have trouble saying NO to anyone. Without the proper outlet I try to please everyone and keep the hurt and anger inside. Well, it has erupted - I have communicated on many levels my anger and disappointment with many people I love and care about.

My communication issues pervade into every relationship both those near to my heart as well as distant acquaintances. I wish I knew how to communicate my feelings, how to say no, and how to make every form of communication - informed, articulate and meaningful.