On Yom Kippor we ask for forgiveness. I was disappointed not to be at services last night to listen to Laury's Kol Nidre. Michelle Rappaport even wrote home from Columbia about the awe of Kol Nidre at Kol Ami. It is inspirational...it is the perfect way to begin the holiday of introspection - but I didn't have a sitter and Sia was out of town - so...I missed it. I have to look at some of the little awe that occurred. As the Shabbat candles were lit, my son, I thought was beginning to be disruptive, turned out to amaze me (again). Arian was not being disruptive -he was keenly attune to what was occurring and asked me, "now we cover our eyes?" and when I asked him earlier about Rosh Hoshonnah he said, "apples and honey." That was fulfilling enough.
REST -on Shabbat we rest. I am sooo tired. I just looked at the blog and realized I have been going non-stop since that 3:30 am awakening 2 weeks ago. 14 days of go, go, go, come home and get ready to go again. Every activity was important and enjoyable but all together have worn me out. This week, without Sia just did me in. My 1st act of forgiveness will be to forgive myself for slowing down and observing Yom Kippor/Shabbat as a day of rest. - I think we will head back to the synagogue and break the fast tonight - but until then I will rest and try get ready to go full speed again next week.
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