My heart is hurt. Siamak always tells me that my biggest problem is that my heart is too big- bigger than my brain. Today Sayeh left to go down to the Rez - my heart is hurt and my brain doesn't know how to fix it. Sayeh just wrote a great essay about her life - how Persian Gormeh Sabzi and Navajo Mutton Stew couldn't be more different. Both dishes are her favorite and both dishes bring comfort and sense of being at home. Sayeh wrote a wonderful sentence in that essay, "One stew, a relentless pursuit of perfection while the other is a more laid back shared responsibility." That sentence describes the difficulty of being pulled in opposing directions your entire life. I hope Sayeh finds some clarity. I am so sad that Sayeh is 18, chronologically an adult, but still very much a child- who has the world and her place in it to be discovered. Right now, I know Sayeh is struggling with an inner Tug of War. I think the hardest thing for Sayeh to do in her life will be to figure out how the rich cultural stews that make up her being can be balanced. 
Her parents too are in a tug of war within themselves as well as 
expressing it overtly...trying to do what's best for their daughter. I know both of her parents want her to reach her full potential, to be successful and happy. I know both of her parents see Sayeh's steps toward her future in very different maybe even opposing ways. What happened to Sayeh this summer was magical. For 3 months Sayeh found a place to belong in the world. As a counselor at the JCC - I saw Sayeh grow, blossom and smile. I watched Sayeh become more comfortable being an individual with a unique and rich blend of culture. Sayeh worked hard, she was responsible, creative and seemed to be at peace with herself. I think when she figures out where she should be and what she should do she will feel peace by working hard, being responsible and being creative in an environment that fully supports her unique self. I will throw in my cultural two cents and I honestly think college is the place that gives you those experiences. I hope Sayeh will find her way there.
expressing it overtly...trying to do what's best for their daughter. I know both of her parents want her to reach her full potential, to be successful and happy. I know both of her parents see Sayeh's steps toward her future in very different maybe even opposing ways. What happened to Sayeh this summer was magical. For 3 months Sayeh found a place to belong in the world. As a counselor at the JCC - I saw Sayeh grow, blossom and smile. I watched Sayeh become more comfortable being an individual with a unique and rich blend of culture. Sayeh worked hard, she was responsible, creative and seemed to be at peace with herself. I think when she figures out where she should be and what she should do she will feel peace by working hard, being responsible and being creative in an environment that fully supports her unique self. I will throw in my cultural two cents and I honestly think college is the place that gives you those experiences. I hope Sayeh will find her way there.
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